ILHANAY TA BAI!

HELLO, I'M SHARMINE C VILLACRUSIS. 18 YEARS OLD. MY HEIGHT IS 5'5, WEIGHING 48 KILOS. CURRENTLY RESIDING AT PUROK STA RITA, SEGUNDINO ST., GLAN PADIDU, GLAN SARANGANI PROVINCE.  I'M A GRADE 12 STUDENT OF GLAN PADIDU NATIONAL HIGH SCHOOL. TAKING AN ACADEMIC TRACK, HUMSS STRAND.  LET ME INTRODUCE TO YOU ALL MY NICKNAMES, YES NICKNAMES. MY FAMILY USUALLY CALLS ME, "INDAY", MY FRIENDS CALLS ME" MAINE" MY CLOSE FRIENDS CALLS ME " MINE" AND MY BEST FRIENDS CALL ME "PAYAT" WHICH MEANS THIN IN CEBUANO AND "KULOT" WHICH MEANS CURLY IN CEBUANO. ALSO OTHER CALLS ME "TUKOG OR KAWAYAN". THEY USED IT AS A TEASED BECAUSE I HAVE A THIN BODY. LOL!   

I received so many feedbacks from my friends and from those people who knows me. I received different impression from different person but some of them have the same thoughts about me. Many of them think that I am sociable type of person. Some of them think that I am sporty. Some of them see me as talkative person. Others also say that I am friendly. Other said that I am active and some people think that I am funny/jolly. Some of them think that I have high standards in making friends, I don't think so but it's their own impression by the way. 

So, these are the facts about me and also my characteristics. People's thoughts that I am a good one, thus let me introduce to you all my traits. Yes, I'm friendly to the point that I talk to strangers. For instance, in a youth seminars or orientations in church, of course there are lots of youth coming from different places, usually, i talk to them first though I don't even know their names yet. Second is being jolly. Yes, I'm funny and jolly type of person and I liked to make others happy too. The thrird one is approachable. I'm easy-please type of person and I'm easy to get along with. Next is active. I loved to be active, i always engaged myself to many activities not just in my school but of course to my community. I loved to put myself in the situation where i can encouraged everyone to be active too in such activities in School and even outside. Moreover, sporty. The fact is i liked extra curricular activities. I loved sports such as volleyball, baske...

 What makes me different into others? It's kinda weird, i have this habit that i think it's very different from others. One of it is being so loud in a minute then too quite in another minute. Like, lol, "how can you do that?" Maybe, i can be the most quite person when i get hurt and one thing can hurt me is invalidating my feelings. I totally shut and just sit in a corner. 

Many people think that I am a lesbian, some people think that I am a bisexual, some people think that I am a gay but the fact is I am me. I was born being a girl but I grew up with a gender crisis. If you ask me "what is your gender preferences?" Then I may answer you this " I am me". It's very hard for me having this gender crisis. Do you know why? Here it goes, it's very hard because I became pressure when random people ask my gender. I became panic due to the fact that I didn't know whats the answer of that certain question. It's just a simple question but wheneveri hear it, whenever someone ask it, I became silent all of a sudden. To be honest, I didn't know what my gender is. It's kinda weird, right? But yeah that's me and I'm just be me. 

My greatest weakness is losing people that I'm already attached to. I experienced that and I find it so hard because i overthink a lot, like " am I not worth it?" Or like, "where did I crossed the line?". I overthink a lot and keep questioning my self-worth and personally, I don't want to experience it again. I think losing people is a another kind of defeat. Many times I left behind but I just always convince myself that there is a deep reason why they left me. I just keep goin' though it's hard.  My strength is being an adventurous person. Going everywhere especially close to nature makes my soul calm. Tranquil nature views, wide green fields, blue skies, a vivid flowing water on rivers, sounds of waves in the shore with music on are the things that makes my soul calm and also all of those gives me hope whenever i feel hopeless. Nature gives me strength to keep moving forward.